Of all days, I have to have the worst trauma job I had in 3 years. Some guy got hit by a car, sustained substantial
bodily damage, blood everywhere,  and through all the chaos I lost
my cool Benchmade Rescue Hook blade.  Not cool 

“Take me DRUNK I’m HOME”

Darn it, who gaved me the ninja?!

Happy Valentine’s!

Adam: God, why did you make Eve so beautiful?

God: So that you will love her.

Adam: But why did you make her so dumb?

God: So that she will love you.

Pep talk from a German American friend about lateness (I was late for our appointment yesterday)

Friend: “You see Charlie, us Germans
made the v-1 missle. It was precise. Accurate. It was never late. We
almost conquered the entire world because of it. Look at our BMW’s,
Porches, Mercedes, and even Volkswagon. Precise engineering . Us
Germans made such a huge contributions to this world “

Me: “Like David Hasselhoff?”

Friend: “Shut up”

When I was in Junior High School, I had a little parrot named Rodney.
Even though Rodney bit and screamed at everyone, including me, he would
fly to me and take food from my hand. And he would only do that to me.
I loved him very much. But when high school came, but I was into other
things, and Rodney faded away and died. I just figured he had a cold,
but he never woke up. I felt I have abandoned him. The guilt and pain
was immense.

3 years ago, my best friend Nimoy passed away. Nimoy was a terrier that
lived to be 15 years old. She was given to us by a elderly neighbor who
thought she is best to be around young kids who can keep up with his
puppy energy. I was pretty lonely in junior high school and high
school, and didn’t have many friends at all. But after a tired and
depressing day at school, she would be at the door with her tail
wagging. The last year of her life was terrible. She became very sick
and we had to force feed medications down her throat. It was not
pleasant at all to see, let alone to do.  I was again, so into my
own life..I had a herniated disc and going to court with workers
compensation. One day I was supposed to force feed her meds. I told my
parents I gaved it to her, but I didn’t. She died in her sleep the next
morning. I was at peace in a way,  not having to see her suffer
anymore. But when I came to take her body to the animal hospital, I
wept bitterly. She was my best friend for 15 years, and suddendly
flashes of memories spent with her came.like a clash of waves. I
abandoned a friend again.

I remember when I was a very small child in a puppy store, trying to
manipulate my mom to get me a puppy, I looked into this baby collie’s
eyes and thought “someone made you to be loved and to love”. Well, not
in those words, but my feelings stated that. I beleive it was during
this time, I started talking to myself…but I think I was really
praying. That something greater then myself made those puppies, and
whoever this person was knew how to catch my heart and sink into my
soul.. If you ever been to a puppy store and see these tiny puppies
stare at you, wanting to jump out of their cage to be with you, you
will think the same way too. Animals kept me from being an atheist. Or
maybe my feeble human brain cannot comprehend that such coincidance of
love is very possible and only chemically based. Or maybe if I was
attacked by a scorpion, I may think differently of animals.

I asked several Christians about animals being in heaven. Without
hesistation, they gaved me a “NO”. “Animals don’t have a soul”. I
wondered if these people ever had a puppy, or a cat. They said “well,
if puppies go to heaven, what about cochroaches and amoebas?” Just
because a class of animal is not significant to you, doesn’t mean they
should be ruled out in heaven..right?

I think the church’s response to this dilemna has to be more then that.
The sorrow from a loss of an animal friend is a very real, significant
and relevant emotion. Its a human experience we can’t ignore. Its not
irrational, selfish, or just plain crazy. I know many people, including
and especially Christians, look at us animal lovers as if we are
liberal hippies who do not understand the Gospel. But I wondered what
Jesus would have said to a little boy in the streets of Galilee crying
over the death of his pet goat or dog. “This emotion of yours is not
valid . You are selfish because you don’t love people, so all you could
do is love animals.You are taking the easy way out. Its much easier to
deal with animals then with people. Go read your torrah, ignorant and
selfish kid.”

I think Jesus would have comforted that boy. I think Jesus would have
been heartbroken. While everyone around him screaming about religious
self-importance, money, and stoning people….here was a boy with his
dead puppy in his arms. What about him?

I mean, I get it. There are people out there who loves animals alot
more then they love people. That is not right. If you seen the
sterotypes of mean, grumpy old ladies who scream at everyone at the
streets, yet she has 100 cats at home whom she loves very much. I met
really cold, antisocial people who seems to break out of their shell
when they are presented with a animal to love. I think animals have a
very mystical and (dare I say it) holy quality. While the rest of
humanity marks this jerk in the streets who doesn’t look at anyone in
the eyes, he comes home to his puppy whom he pours affection over.
Animals bring out that quality in people. Animals don’t judge, don’t
measure you up, like humans do. Before you label your grumpy, creepy,
antisocial neighbor as being a “jerk” and someone not likely to
understand the love of God, go get him a puppy. You will see a need to
love and be loved just sprout out, that was buried so deep in the
compost of years of  human judgement and demonization.

I read a online sermon that address the issue very well. This pastor
said, “Go love your animals the best that you can. In the end, it will
all make sense in God’s prefect love.”  He said the bible is
silent on the subject, but he doesn’t label animal lovers as irrational
and irrevelvant.

I like to close my prayer this way. “All good things come from you, all
good things go back to you”. Trust that God, the manifestation of pure
and perfect love, has got the animal love thing covered.

I am not sure if I will see Rodney or Nimoy in heaven one day, but I
know God doesn’t forget them. I like to think they are little angels
that ministered to me, when even the Catholic school I went to couldn’t
help me understand the love of God when I was in junior high. Animal
evangelists…cool huh?

I really hate it when I am in Main Street Flushing and I am taking care
of a patient in the streets, and people stop and just stare at us.
Large crowds….gathering in a circle even. I
get really mad when they actually stand in the way. When has live human
suffering been something to be spectacled, and why sick people have to
lose their dignity, as well as their health, in the process?  I
really like it however, when people stop to help. Although, I really
hate it too, when people call 911…and then they leave the scene
without giving the sick person a hand…as if calling 911 is such a
exciting and heroic deed.  

One of the easiest places in America to meet women, especially “nice”
women, is in church (There are various articles in many different
magazines to confirm this). Thus, church has been a stomping ground for
all kinds of men with all kinds of good and not so good intentions for
the sisters in church.Some of these men may or may not have some
psychological issues.  This leaves a burden, and a duty, for the
men in church to protect our sisters.

The women, who refuses to give attention to these kinds of men, are
labeled hypocrites by their admirers. The men plead their case: they
just want to be friends with the sisters.. Why do church-going
self-labeled Christian women treat them with prejudice. But calling the
sisters on their cell phones nonstop, instant messaging them nonstop,
and following them around after service every Sunday, tend to give that
reaction of annoyance or just plain fear. Some men are more subtle in
their obvious pursuit than others.

Christian sisters are being taken advantage of because they have to be
“nice”. If they refuse and say “no” to a man, they are just being mean
and cruel..thus “not Christian-like”.

Confronting the issue:

After speaking to a couple of sisters, who were either afraid to
confess their annoyance/fear out of guilt, or who outright grabbed me
and yell (in my ear) “get this guy away from me”. I talked to the men
themselves and I get these responses:

“They are hypocrites. They look down on me because I don’t have money”
“This church is full of cliques, and I can never be a member”
“They’re racist”
“I don’t have a problem. There are other girls who are comfortable with me”

The solution?

Christian men should spend more time with other men in church to
minister to them, instead of leaning that responsibilty to the women
(could be pretty dangerous)

Christian women must continue to have that uneasy task of being loving yet firm

Christian women should be united and freely confide in each other, which leaves….

Christian men to be ever vigilant when a problem does arise. We are the protectors of our sisters!

-Sherperding lesson: caring for someone also entails that sometimes the
person whom you are caring for may want more than you are willing or
able to give.

-Number of registered sex offenders in the Upper Queens East Community:
Flushing : 2
Whitestone 2
Bayside: 1
College Point: 13 !

-Why does the number of Christian books on sale in book shelves so
resembles self-help books? Plus, I remain skeptical of the “Prayer of
Jabez” and why its such a bestselling book. “God wants to give you what
you want, all you have to do is ask!”. “The government has alot of
untapped resources and money for you, all you have to do is take it!
Buy this book and find out how!” How many secular books and seminars
out there give the same message? Plenty.

-People in Manhattan are the most self-conscious ambulance patients.
Nobody likes to be a victim in a huge trendy city like Manhattan right?

-Darn it, why can’t I get more Chu Chu time?

Chu Chu in jammies and a 2 pairs of booties.

Note how he looks away from the camera.

Animals need dignity too!!